I was still a bit anxious when I woke up. But, everything went well in the morning. But, in the afternoon, well, around 5PM maybe, things became difficult. My patience was really tested. I had to summon all the patience I can get. I’m just glad there is someone that reminds me that I can make it through. Na kaya ko ito. I’m doing my best to let my otaku spirit out. It is after all my “never give up” spirit. But, things could sometimes really get into your nerves and piss you off big time. Like today.
I had to walk the dog. I’ve been doing it since… I couldn’t even remember. Must have been a long time already. But, since the incident last September 28, I’ve been paranoid when walking the dog. So, earlier, he saw a hare. He wanted to run off after it. I really had to stand my ground, but with bended knees spread apart for better balance, to stop him from doing so. I don’t wanna hurt him. But, I really had to pull his leash so he won’t run away. It’ll be another worry for me if he runs away. Di pu-pwede ‘yon. So, I really had to shout, too, and with instinct, I had a flurry of swear words coming out from my mouth. And I’ve been trying to stop from saying bad words. But, he just brings out the worst in me. So, while fuming in anger, I thought that feeling stressed out and irritated every time I walk him will do me no good. It totally affects my health. Makes me worry about my cardiovascular system… and mental health. It’s no fun to play tug-of-war with a dog almost your size but double your strength. It just isn’t.
I thought that was the end of my lemons for today. Until, I spoke with a friend. She, too, can bring out the hideous monster in me. I had to get away to get a breath of fresh air or I’d go to sleep with a bad day. So, I stopped chatting with her and concentrated on chatting with those that actually made me feel better. Not that I don’t like talking to her. But, I just can’t handle how our conversation today is sucking the life out of me.
On a positive note, all the manga/anime that I keep myself updated were up to par. Didn’t bring me down. Inspired me. Regaled me. Entertained me. I also had, what seemed to become a weekly routine, a healthy discussion with LA about Bleach’s latest chapter. It’s really awesome when after reading or watching something you can discuss your points of view with someone who can relate to what you just have read or watched. All is well.